I'm in a funk. I'm crabby and irritable and just plain not thrilled about life these days. Each night I try and think of something funny to write about - or some story to tell and nothing comes.
I'm tired of complaining about my job and well just plain tired.
I went to dinner last week with some ladies I worked with at JP. It was an end to a particularly grueling day at work and just what I thought I needed. I got to the restaurant (late of course) and joined in the conversation and drinks.
I have to admit that upon arrival I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. I thought about how crappy my job was and about how unhappy I was. So I started to listen to the stories of two of the ladies I was with. They both are currently unemployed and they were discussing how difficult the last several months had been. They discussed how costly health insurance was for them and how one of them would not have been able to afford their winter heating bill if it wasn't for the kindness of their mother.
Wow . . . it's amazing how different those stories sound when you are sitting with your friends and they are telling them. Sure, I hate my job . . . but at least I can provide for my family and at least my job is stable. I can't imagine what it must feel like to not be able to pay your bills! I was struck as I listened to this professional woman describe her endless days of searching for a job that doesn't seem to exist and the toll it has taken on her spirit.
I got up this morning dreading the return of the work week. I sat in bed with the phone clutched in my hand - fingers waiting to dial with some excuse as to why I couldn't return . . . bad migraine, the flu, my child was sick, anything so I wouldn't have to face another Monday and another five days of hell. As I sat there I started to think about those two ladies . . . they would kill for my job . . . heck for any job . . . it wasn't my right to feel that way - it wasn't fair.
So - I dragged my sorry butt out of bed and met Monday head on. Adios Monday . . . until we meet again.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Here's The Deal . . .
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2 comments:
I know what you mean, we really have to be thankful for what we have.
Have you been searching for a new job?
No, I am not looking for a job. There are several reasons for that. One is I totally hate starting over and being the "new girl" that doesn't know anything. Two, I currently have a pretty stable position and in this economy I'm afraid to venture somewhere that may not be so stable.
I'm really torn as to what is the right thing to do here. I know it's not fair to my family to always be a crab, but it's also not fair to them to leave a good paying stable job for something else that might not be so.
UGGGHH!!!
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