Best Laid Plans

I've been sitting here - staring at this blank page . . . wondering what to write about since I promised to write once a week and I'm one day late and now it appears I have writer's block.

Do you have a plan for your life? Do you do things on the spur of the moment . . . or is everything planned out? Is your life what you thought it would be?

I watched "Revolutionary Road" yesterday. Of course every time Brian tells me, or anyone for that matter, tells me a movie is excellent - I end up not liking it. I won't give the whole thing away if you haven't seen it, but it is basically about a married couple living in an unhappy marriage.

After it was over I looked at Brian and asked him why in the world anyone would want to spend two hours watching a movie about how two people that were once in love could be so unhappy. How depressing. I then posed the question as to what the point of that movie really was . . . how could two people be so happy together and then begin to want different things out of life? Brian told me that I just got the point of the movie . . . I guess maybe it wasn't so bad.

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We went to a family wedding in Oshkosh over the weekend. It was the first time I had seen Brian's grandpa since we found out he has colon cancer. He'd been in and out of the hospital for awhile . . . each time he would recover something else would go wrong. I watched Brian's grandma take care of him . . . she would steady him when he walked . . . she would sit next to him when he needed to rest . . . she even left the reception early when he was too tired to attend any longer. All you had to do was look at them and you knew how much she loved him.

I couldn't help but wonder what she must be thinking these days. Does she think about losing him? Does she think about what her life will be like if he leaves this earth before her? They have been married for over 50 years . . . 50 years!! They didn't drift apart . . . they didn't fall out of love . . . they don't have an unhappy marriage. For some people it must just work . . .

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Brian spent Father's Day by getting absolutely nothing . . . from me that is. Luckily, the kids were with my parents . . . so when we picked them up on Sunday my mom had taken Kadin to the store and he picked out a shirt for Brian. It is awesome . . . it has Snoopy on it and it says "Joe Cool Dad." HA!! The funny thing is . . . I know Brian will wear it some day . . . just to show Kadin how much he likes it . . . even if it is just to mow the lawn. Brian is just that kind of dad.

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I've been feeling very lucky these days . . . almost giddy about my life and how blessed I am. I look around my house and I just feel right . . . like I am right where I am supposed to be . . . totally content and happy. I am enjoying my children . . . falling more in love with my husband . . . and trying to hold on to all these special moments for as long as I can.

I may not have my life all planned out . . . but one thing I can plan on is that Brian and I won't fall out of love with each other . . . because I think we just work too.